Making it easy

 Sure, I was late. After the testing class, today it was my first . I had to pay the rest of the month, with cash but i didn't have the money. My plan was going to the nearest ATM. When I get there I just realized my card wasn't with be. I changed my purse for a more comfortable one. That was a crucial moment. This is it what this blog is about. About overcome my fears and my negatives to myself. Yes are not only about the ones that you take but also about those you give yourself. I am not a native English speaker so you will find grammar mistakes that I don't want to hide. It is not that I don't want to do it well. It's juts that I don't want to hide my mistakes. Because I need to believe that I'm worthy with them too.

I had to come back home . How I could being there without paying. I was also stressed because last time I was late more than 15 minutes and we were recommended to be there 15 minutes before the class start. I was really anxious and worry and again something that I choose because I want to do it suddenly become a source of stress and pressure on  me. Then I realized coming back home for the card that this is exactly how this process was going to be. This wasn't to be easy . All what I am will find a way to do this uncomfortable, stressful, anxious process. So, I learnt that I have to give myself all kind of chances. I n order to do something for me, something that I've always desire to do that I thought I didn't have any talent for, I had, I have to give myself an unlimited numbers of opportunities and chances. I had to be patient with myself.

I found some cash money at home. Maps reveals that I was 24 minutes away of the class meeting point. And again? Will I being on time? It was ten thirty eight, the class stared at eleven and I was 24 minutes away.  So yes. I definitely will be some minutes late. 

Certain spaces in the park are still closed because of the great snow and some paths are still closed. But being afraid of missing my class and  got lost. I decide to cross one of them  to be in time. When I arrive to a crossroad I took the time to think where were we last time.  Because I gave myself the time I could see and think in order of what I saw. Juan was there a few meters in front of me. He was just putting on the skates.

The first thing he wear are the knees protection. I asked him if he had change. He look on his wallet and told me that I could pay on the next class. WHAT?! So I've been worrying like hell for something that can be solve the next week. The rest of the students were coming one by one. And it seems warming stars with the class going around and skating.  I didn't to interrupt anybody because they're all really good skaters so I put myself away from the group. Juan Said to me: "!come with others! ¡integrate!". So I did. And I got closer and roll with them. And then I thought that everything that I was worrying about just wasn't there. I can making it easy.