Chosing what to stop and the power of choices.

 There were sucha good moments today at class. First of all there were this handsome guy trying skating backforward. I was staring at him because he was trying a big effort to get it and somehow he could make it. Maybe I embarrased him by looking at him, but actually I was just thinking and how far I am for doing nothing similar to that.

I was the first and I loved that. Then Julia saw me sitting under the lightstreet where we leave our stuff during the class. She approached and I almost melt when I realized her kindness. Generosity and kindness are so top for me. It takes a while to learn what are the things that turn you on. I want to say that I know a lot about being rough manners and certain kind of microviolence. It took me a while realize that arre people who drives in other terms. And then I had to find the words. Because I never thought that I had to name that. But actually I have to find the words to refer my experience to them.

Antonio show us his carnet from when he joined the skate club during the dictatorship. That was amazing. 

The class today was very difficult. Sometimes when I see the instructor explaining the acrobatics I can't even understand that could be possible. A certain level was needed today and I didn't have it. So the instructor give certain exercises specific with less level to practice. Today I improved very much in the way I take the class. Today I started to follow the instruction. Maybe I am so used to give results in my life that I don't take the time anymore to go step by step. I have to sit, then a feet go ahead and finally I put wheell rolling. But it is mainly about trying and experimentig. The truth it is that there arelonger skaters in the class and is very frustrating watching them making all those figures. That can be frustrating.  

But today it happened that I found myself like fed up of thinking that I can´t do it. I found mysel in this recurring thought that I don't know. And I realize that I stop myself, that Speed scares me and inertia too. I'm in need of the control so much that I literally stop and don't let the movement and effort I do takes me anywhere. Suddenly, I said to myself try the opposite, stop of being the one who doens't know, stop of being the one who can't do it, stop of stopping and go with the speed.

I made it with the left foot and the right feet was other. But changing my own paradigm was very powerful. It is not only about stopping thinking habits it is also about choosing what you want to be.